I thought across my reasons of thought and, being real with myself and others. Someone once said, sit down and make a list of the good and bad things about yourself, be honest! It is a test if you truly knowing self. My truth is I hate and like to be challenged, I live it and breathe it every day. I don’t pull myself down by my skin, but yet I challenge myself by its reasons. I walk the shadows of my ancestors and listen to their reasons. I’ve watched the sunrise on many occasions, not asking what I’m going to do today, but thanking the ancestor for this path I walk, honoring every sacrifice they have made, and press on to the next challenge. I live by no one analytics on the nature of life, or philosophies of quotes of how to walk my path. I walk my own path, and my reasons to prepare for my own cross roads, and my understanding of how it will differ from others hence my own philosophies of how I will be at my crossroads. Challenges I face every day is missing my baby girl. Living life without her is beyond my coping skills. However, I will live on, through my love for her and the stains of memories she has left across my heart. I have another daughter for whom I love, fear of one loss is baring on the shoulders of the other. Seeing her live such a positive life, to prepare to walk her own path. Bring a welcomed comfort to my heavy heart. My nephew who I look to as a son. Hang by the phone waiting his call, just to hear his voice. You may ask, what does all this have to do with knowing self? I live my life by my truths every day, my children are my truths, that’s why my heart beat. As for knowing self, I blame no one for the decisions I make in my life, or the self-created stumbling blocks that become the consequences of decisions I made in life. I credit no one but me, the challenge? It lies in how I will recover and press on. That is a part of all-knowing self and discovering wisdom and knowledge from the power that comes from overcoming my own regretful decisions.
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