A Letter to my Mother

I have looked across my reasons for existence, and all I have seen is you. I have seen a lot of sunrises since, and I thank that Lord I have. But there is none that take my breath away, since the one we have seen together. Forgive me, for the selfish reasons I feel inside, that I wish you were here. Forgive me for the tears, that come when I feel the emptiness inside that has haunted me since the day you left. I will never forget your arms, when you held me close to your heart. I will never forget the sounds of your heart beat that echoes in my mind. I will never forget September, or the day God called you home. I will never forget November or the day, God gave you birth. Or the month of January, that carries the first day of another year, that I will see with just your memories. The month of march, and the day you gave me life. Nor will I forget the month of May, or the day that marks the reason why I love you. Knowing, that I will always have that one person that will stand for me even in death. From the depths within no one else will stand, and love me like no one else will. Please forgive me, for being so selfish, knowing in my heart, that I am not the only one who loves you. However, I am the only one that shares that day of birth with you, when no one else can. These are not words for closer, in a life that we once shared. But yet a reminder, that no one will hold in my heart that one place you exist. I have looked across my reasons for existence, and all I have seen is you, and that one moment in time, you give me birth. Forgive me for these reasons, my tears won’t let me forget. That once you were my mother, my Queen a place that no one will ever stand. For that one moment of my birth, you were my first love.